| so today was my last final...marketing management. it was hard, but i think i did better than i did on the midterm, which is a good thing. after taking it, it hit me. college is done. all we have left is senior crawl tongiht and graduation tomorow. it's really sad. i don't want to graduate. i started crying in the car when bob and i were talking about it. i'm gonna miss him too. i'm so used to having him around, it's gonna be weird without him there. i told him i'd miss him.... and as we were driving up to his apartment, i was like awww this is gonna be the last time i drop you offf. it was really sad. ok well i'm sure i'll be crying at senior crawl tonight but i gotta go run some errands so peace out. |
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| today was my last day of classes ever in my undergraduate career. yikes. my emotions= all over the place. |
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| graduating high school did not feel this way. maybe because it wasn't as uncertain. none of us knows whats going to happen or where we will be. it sucks. its stressful. its scary. i don't like it. i know people prolly think, oh whatever its not THAT big of a deal. but i think unless you've gone through it, you don't know. like i'm all about moving on and doing new things, but its still scary because what if i end up doing it alone. people say, oh amanda you make friends easily. but even if i do, i don't want to get rid of my old friends and even if we stay in contact, it won't be the same. and the whole being alone thing is really hitting me as the last day of school approaches....i feel like i'm just gonna be bored and lonely and not have anyone. i know its not true but i'm afraid of that happening. i pretty much hate change. and also i have no job lined up. spectacular, right?! i want a good job, and i don't want one around here. but yet i don't wanna be alone. and if i move elsewhere i will be. because i don't have anyone to go with. this is a very emotional time and i feel like this semester is passing by so quickly. i'm trying to enjoy the time i have left. it's very bittersweet. ok is that enough whining for you?
p.s. as i look at my calander, i wonder...what is Showa Day (Japan)???
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| Happy Easter! after all, it is the day Jesus was born.......lol whatttt? |
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